Turning 30 is a big deal for some, and for others it's just a number. I tried to look at it from the middle of both perspectives.
I didn't want a number to dictate my life or where I was in it, but I did use it as a moment to really look at it's accomplishments, pitfalls, where I've been and where I'm going. Basically as one big proverbial spell checker where I could right click on the red lines that were hanging around.
I believe it's healthy (for me at least) to check myself from time to time. Not to pick myself apart - because that's never a road I want to go down - but to make sure I'm doing what I want with this one life that I have. If I sat around and just assumed I was perfectly content with everything, I would look back one day and realize I should have tried that new idea, made the crazy leap of faith with another, or let others go that never really served me in the first place.
Back in June when I turned the big 3 - 0, I actually looked at it as a brand new decade of exciting things to discover. I mean, yes, I did start finding lines on my face, to which I immediately bought all of the anti-ageing oils known to man - But more importantly I looked back at all of the things I have learned in my 30 years on this planet. Some have been hard lessons, and some have been beautiful realizations. All of them have got me where I am, and for that I am grateful.
I realized the things which have had the biggest impact on my direction, were the things I took the biggest chance on: From ending one relationship for one that is now my entire world, to deciding last minute to go to NSCAD and pursue art when I was already enrolled somewhere else, to throwing every penny we had into starting Three Stack Studio when I was on mat leave and Eric was in the middle of switching careers. It would have been easy to sit back and roll with the punches, but instead I took a hard look around and decided to take a chance.
By far the biggest decision Eric and myself ever made was to have our son, Odin. And by far this was the best one we could have made. Of everything that has made me check myself, Odin has been the most significant. I need to be the best version of myself for him. Without him we might not have went down this crazy, wonderful road that we find ourselves on now!
I've also realized the things which have had the biggest impact on my happiness, are the simplest things. I am a wholehearted lover of the small things in life: My 8 pm cup of tea, the call from my grandmother to remind me that it is in fact snowing, our illegal walks through an undisclosed golf course, sitting with a beer on my friend’s deck by the ocean, and every moment I get to spend with everyone I love. These are what fill everyday life with confidence to take the big chances.
Everyone has their own way of moving through the days or decades; at 30 mine is to live and love in bold simplicity.